Emotional Breakdown

My mind totally blank, can't even do the simplest calculation thing. I've faced so many God's trial before,but this is consider the biggest one, apart of the time when I lost my RM16k to that son of a gun.

Allah sentiasa menguji hamba-Nya untuk melihat sejauh mana keimanan kita terhadapNya.

The worst is, I'm facing this during my final exam. I have a paper today at 2.15pm. This is purely God's test to me. Mak & ayah had no words left to calm me down. I'm an absolute turbulent disaster, crying non stop since yesterday evening, when the JKM people took Hajar away from me. Who's Hajar?. Well, she is a new soul sent to me. A newnborn with unlucky past, born by a mother as young as Apis. She's a product of bizarre social problem which looks common nowadays in this so called islamic country, and she has a very beautiful name. Siti Hajar.
Totally felt in love with Hajar the first time I saw her. I'm still crying while writing this, remembering yesterday's commotion when JKM people took her away since she's already under their case. I dont even know that!. Mak & ayah received wrong information on this. JKM took Hajar away since they told us that there will be an interview this Monday and one couple has been called in, since they're under JKM's waiting list. Mak & ayah fought at their best to defend what happened, since that false info also previously given by an assholes which happened to be also one of that JKM people.
The only hope now, is to convince the mother & grandfather to give it to me. Emak called the grandfather yesterday night, & he preferred us to have Hajar instead of the other family since he knew nothing about them. I hope both Farah & his father will have a say on to whom Hajar will be taken care. I'm still clinging for any hope. Any.